I hope I can look that good and have that much family when I am Opa's age.

Looks like I may be able to swing a flight because of the bereavement policies. Such short notice but I think it is a good thing for me to do. I feel a bit numb but I want to feel more. I think going to his funeral will help me. I just don't want to look back on this in a few years and wonder why I didn't go or at least make an attempt to go.