I've had a pretty good past couple of days, but reality is beginning to re-emerge and rear its ugly head. It is really easy to be happy and have fun when there are parties and people to distract me but the second those things disappear, I am still here. I then become the same unsatisfied and unsatisfiable person. It is a life long thing for me but I just can't stand being alone. I am going to try and change that starting right now. Wheee!